Goodbyes

It's been a while since I last updated. There have been some changes I guess you can say. "New job?" Not going so well it turns out. I've been given some time off while the boss decides that the next plan of action is in the marketing campaign I was spear heading. Needless to say I have already started reapplying and setting up interviews per chance I am not needed indefinitely. It is incredibly inconvenient being out of a job but I am trying to look at the silver lining; I hated that job.

Ironically there was a tragedy in the family as they called me out of work. After 13 long loving years I had to put my best companion to sleep. My mom and I rescued KC from the humane society when I was 10. I can barely remember life before his furry face in the house and now it is painstakingly empty. I keep expecting to see him sleeping in the corner or to come tell me he's hungry for his dinner. He was the best little dog anyone could ask for and I already miss him terribly. Now that I have spent the last week cooped up in my room crying hysterically; it is time to let the healing process begin. I need to just keep reminding myself he's in a better place. The last thing I would ever want is to see that little pup suffer; and I can surely say that by his last few days he was in tremendous pain. In what seemed like a matter of hours he managed to develop ulcers in both his eye, an ear infection and a chronic cough which broke my hear every time I heard it. He was too good and loyal of a companion to keep on living like that.  However that does not change the fact how much I miss him. I would give almost anything just to hold him and pet him again. I was not ready to say goodbye and it was the hardest thing I think I have ever had to do. But it wasn't my choice; it was his and his time had come. He was my best friend; always there for me and therefore I was there to take care of him in his most desperate time of need. I will always love him and I can rest assured I gave him the best life possible and he will always have a place in my heart.  He was my first pet and I will never forget his adorable little face. Losing him has truly made me realize how much pets enrich our lives. We should never abuse their love or take them for granted. They are the most loyal creatures with such unconditional love of any creature I've yet to meet and it's truly remarkable what a role they can play in our lives.

In the interim; I do have Muttley to take care of and I must say he has become overwhelmingly clingy. He has barely left my side in days and has enjoyed being taken places and going on more car rides than usual. I didn't know how he would handle being the lone household dog but he seems to be managing better than expected.

In all this chaos graduate school and studying for the GRE have been put on hold.  Due to the pathetic excuse of a job market I have decided to further my education in hopes that this job struggle might be eased. Not to mention that I was a great student, nerd actually, and actually liked the concept of learning and school. I would not mind expanding my knowledge. The application process will begin shortly. If I can manage to receive a decent amount of financial aid I will be a grad student next year.

More to come.